I can't say i'm terribly excited or nervous even, actually, but...at least the job's close to home, has a higher pay and shorter working hours.
Oh, that and the fact that i may have a chance to get to design some clothes and actually have them manufactured and sold in the shop itself! That in itself is a pretty exciting prospect. :)
Apart from the usual outings, fun and such, there hasn't been much of note lately.
I just thought of typing my thoughts out here, on this little blogspace of mine.
Perhaps this is temporary; another phase i'm going through but lately, the world seems a grimmer place than before.
What i once took for genuine concern, warmth and care has been revealed to be disdain; deceit and treachery; what i once saw as 'moral right'; 'moral value' and 'the right thing to do' has been debased.
Maybe it's that i've been exposed to the wrong kind of people for these two months; most likely it's because i've spent too much time in their cancerous company for far too long, but i think i now realise why most people usually abide by this adage: 'If it's too good to be true, it most probably isn't'.
Pessimistic and misanthropic? Yes. But it's to protect ourselves from harm, both emotional and psychological and now that i think i see how things lie true for others, i can't say i would really fault them.
Though i do keep in mind that not all are the same.
Long story short, my rose-tinted glasses have broken.
Most likely.
I need to find that inner peace again; need to stop relying on insubstantial, fleeting moments and physical goods to give me happiness.
That being said, i do look forward to the upcoming trips i have ahead of me for the rest of this year, and the next. Switzerland in November; Malaysia in December, (perhaps) Bangkok in February and then Shanghai & Taiwan with Qri...and perhaps, Cambodia with Odie! Or Bangkok with Kimmee.
Either way, i can't wait to get started. Maybe i'll feel as drained as ever when i return from these trips, but on a brighter note, i bet these will give me a new perspective on life, and give me the inclination to move on from this temporary, metaphorical rut i am lodged in at this moment.
And on another random note...
..it was about time i've started reading again.
Stayed up all night to finish The Red Chamber, and it was good! The moral of the story for me was that 'karma does come full circle' and things do get better in the end.
Have yet to start on Kafka, but am pretty stoked to get to it(amusing surrealism has always been my thing), right after i finish Heart Of Darkness. Finally got my hands on it! Yay. :)
I've been rambling on long enough for now.
Ta. :)
