Moving On-

-is for the better. I guess i've got to remember that, and not let the past hinder me!

I really should be sleeping now.

This girl i know

Well, i'm reading her blog now.

A jumble of emotions is what i feel as i scan through, and feel those emotions raging through those words.

Pity, empathy,sadness-yet a certain element of indifference. Overriding it all of course, is pity.

It's not that i haven't tried reaching out to her; i have. I want to listen to her, so i can help her the way i was.

Maybe it was because of an incident that happened in primary school-i think she said something that sounded funny to her and everyone, but ended up offending me(i had 0 social skills and was so serious back then!). So i retaliated with some caustic remark that made her stop and stare everywhere but in my general direction. On hindsight, i think it must have seemed like a sudden personal attack to her. Honestly though, i don't regret doing it. It was as much of a shock to me as to her.

Goodness,what a diversion.

Anyway.

Although it seems highly impossible, i am thinking of subtly reaching out to her again. I do think this attempt would be met with sneers of contempt, sniggers and bitching about me both from her and her clique, but, well.

I feel for her; i can empathize not with her encounters but with the emotions she's felt. This is what makes me pity, and want to reach out to her.

But it's a pipe dream, i'm sure.

She's made it obvious that she dislikes me, as well as her friends(in St Margs).

Frankly i don't and couldn't give a damn even if (insert horrible life threatening remarks here)happens to her friends-the whole hypocritical,hell-of-a-Bitchy,fake clique can go hang for all i care,but i do still care for her,i guess.

Strange isn't it? How one can still care for one who clearly dislikes her and hangs with that type of company.

Life is strange.

On a side note: Anyone wants to get Threadless shirts??? Please text me or comment by Thurs asap! :)

Ps: I miss my Creative. You say it's lousy,just a SG brand but you have no idea! It's so much more easier to configure songs(just drag and drop,that fast!).

Annoying iPod just resynced and nearly 100+ of my songs are gone and i don't have the patience of a saint to do the obvious-just resync and download etc.

I plan to sell this annoying iPod Nano New Generation(the metallic,shiny type)soon. It's black with scratches, so i'm prob gonna sell it for...$100? Or $95 lah. Originally bought for $210. I alr know of someone who'd like to have it :)

Alright,school starts tmr, i have no idea how i'll do studying,revising and all that crap cause...18 months of hols. My brain's been in 'Party' mode for 18 months and all of a sudden i'm gonna have to study.

I will do my best and make the most out of this term.

Sarah and Nat and C and her cousin's all gg to Sabah for a relaxing 4d3n stay in a resort!!! See,this is what i mean by having something enticing dangled in front of you and not being able to grab it(parents firmly say 'No!' to me gg overseas). )):

Aww man next week's gonna suck so hard for me.

Anyway.

Nights! :)

Zookeeper-

-with Odie was meh. I didn't think any of the animals were cute...i did like the lion,however! :) Am partial to big cats. Didn't like the wolf cause it was kinda vulgar.

Anyhow, we had lunch at Sakura first. The salmon belly is Mad Delish and i ordered two servings-i used to think that these were crazily expensive, cause i read in an article that in Japan, a slice of quality salmon-or wait,it it tuna?-belly could be above a hundred yen.

YUM :D

Then realized we missed the beginning and shot out of the restaurant; i had even forgotten that we had a movie to catch!

Afterwards, we headed to ION, then F.E.P for a spot of shopping. Odie didn't get anything ): I saw this beautiful necklace-a dream catcher one! It retailed for $17.90, and i didn't have the money atm. A pair of black heels, rocking-horse imitations, also caught my eye...am still undecided on it, because they look swell but,well...idk lah.

Maybe i'll get them for CNY. *makes excuses to splurge* :D

Also, the topic of hair-makeovers.

Well,in this case, mine.

I still am undecided on whether i should dye it reddish brown(Liese), or streak it Teal(prettyyy!) or Jap Strawberry!

One of the main detractors is the cost, The salon which has the colours i want would charge $130+ and that is a crazy amount of money to spend on mere streaking.

Also, someone-can't rmb who tho- went 'then teal also hard to match with clothes...'

Rant:

I,um,went '-_-' at that,cause...making a decision regarding one's hair color isn't dependent on your outfit. It's gonna be with you for quite some time so it had better be a color you like.

This whole matching thing sounds rather foolish to me uh actually, to be honest. -_- Outfit,yes but hair and nails, no need in some cases.

...in any case if i Do streak or dye my hair some outlandish color and some bimbo goes 'OMG why she dye like that, her hair doesn't even match her clothes!' i would totally give her the Bitch treatment.

Like what, don't tell me you're so concerned with coordinating you also coordinate your underwear and your socks and even perfume with your outfit of the day ah?

And you think it's so time and cost-efficient ah, matching hair and nails for every outfit of the week,month etc. You want you do for me lah, everyday, foc okay?!

Siao.

Hair and nails are like an extension of one's personality to me-as with clothes,but they're a diff matter-everything doesn't have to match up because One person thinks it's only right to, or that it should be done.

Alright, mini rant over.

Ahem. Anyway,

not going to S/'s house as planned cause she's sick. ): Hope you recover soon girl!

I guess i'm looking forward to the start of school cause there'll be a flow of company once again!

Meeting up,chatting and having fun over last week-and today-with my close friends has been GREAT, but i guess i also need lots of company.

It's been continuous 'hols' for me since the start of this new term-no studying, no exams!, constant going-to-school-in-party-mode and living it up for the first ever time in an educational institution. :D

All this constant company and fun everyday with poly and close peeps now make this actual hol feel like a total bore.

Ah,the irony.

*grins* XD

This sudden dip into hols without a whole bunch of chatter,laughter and people has turned me introverted again and i don't like it that much.

Solely cause it's a buzz-kill for me when i go out with friends during these days!

Hope this'll be resolved soon. :)

On a side note, i confess i haven't even had a day of rest for myself since the hols started. Tmr doesn't count cause i won't be able to enjoy a day alone at home all by myself.

But there's always Fri,i suppose.

Nights! :)

Past few days-

-of hols have been...hectic! Visited SMPS and had Strictly Pancakes w Nat and Sar. on Fri.

STRICTLY PANCAKES IS GOOD.

:DDD Pics are up in FB-so dang delicious!!! Esp the garlic butter pancakes and prawns omg. Am currently making plans to intro all my friends to that wonderful,wonderful place of heavenly pancakes.

Many memories came to me as i toured the school...if you're wondering about the numerous pics of the loos i snapped, it was because one of my best childhood memories grew there-in P6 we had toilet paper fights, standing on the ledges, two in one cubicle and shouting random nonsense and flinging bits of it back and forth...very haywire. I think we fed off the ''danger'' of being caught by teachers and the knowledge that we were doing something forbidden...

..also because the PSLEs were approaching and we had to do smth to relieve stress i suppose. Haha!

I also added Ms L. and Mrs O. in FB!

Ms L. has always been my fav teacher, had always been as well. She inspires me,with her no-bullshit, straightforward attitude... :))

I plan to channel her when-well, or maybe IF,i have kids in the future. Hee.

Had a short lunch and mani w S. Dear ytd; it was cut short because i had to go home for dinner. I fully intend to spend an entire day with her next week. :)

Also, had a bit of a shock yesterday morning. I opened my bedroom door to my mum's "Wake up,come out of your room" and her going "Ah Ma nearly passed away last night you know?", looking at me, gauging my reaction.

Quite a bit of a shock, i must say.

The enormity of it actually hit me only 15 minutes later, then i was fully aware of the implications. Most of all,how my parents would take to this.

Death is such a sobering thing, isn't it?

._.

S. also told me that i do think too much when i confided in her.

So true.

On a side note, i am beginning to wonder if i do have this obsessive thinking disorder. Even after prying a chunk of thoughts away from my mind, my brain continues to pick at little insignificant details.

._. Tssh.

Anyway, school's up in a couple of days...and i don't think i'm in the studying mood just Yet.

Today's the only day of rest at home i've had.

I sincerely hope that i can get enough rest in the days to come before school starts.

I know i ought to be thinking of studying, but all i can think of now is..."Got M.t,K.c and the rest of my peeps there. Can play,whooo! :DD".

-___________- Ah well.

Ta! :)

Idk if, but well...

http://www.buzzle.com/articles/obsessive-thinking-disorder.html.

...

Being rich-

-is a choice, like much of everything else. I wasn't born with a golden spoon in my mouth(more like it was stolen or grabbed away by that useless BUM of an asshole of...well, one of his family members, can't say who.).

I'm not extremely carefree either. I have my own worries, regrets, frustrations and fears like everyone else does. Everyone cries at night in bed sometimes no matter how happy their day was mah.

Everything's gonna be up to me alone to continue this standard of living and i honestly don't know how my foray into the fashion business will be like. It is freaking deadly intense and there is so much i don't know about. SHIT.

Aiya. Anyway main point is, being rich or financially stable is all up to how HARD you are WILLING to work for, to attain your goal in the future.

Doesn't matter where you come from; all that matters is where you're at-to quote Step Up 2.

Hai nevermind lah, it's really 'wonderous' how a simple text can bring one into emotional turmoil.

But really, the onus is on you to make it all better.

Just saying.

Nights!

And when it swallows you up-

-you can't feel anything else at all.

They say time heals but i guess it's still bleeding and sore.

It swallows you up, and swallows you whole

Just when you think you've been through it all, and emerged 'whole'.

I wonder if this is normal; i wonder if this is right-

to be consumed all of a sudden, like this; to be sewn up tight-

-in sudden loneliness. Do any of you wonder?

Or is it just me who so easily to this, surrenders?

I thought i was free, but now it's come back

These abrupt blues have now launched an attack.

Someone told me something, and i guess it's just so true.

That insommia's only caused by thinking too much. But this, i cannot rue...

I owe my story-writing success to this. But is this a price too heavy to pay?

Once you think you're free of this illness, it comes back, with a vengeance,to play.

...

But hark! What is this! Gracey's found her timetable

And her sadness turns to sudden glee!

An abrupt change in the mood but it's for the better-

-for who'd want to remain in misery? :)

...random angsty poem over. I miss writing them though...

anyway i just found out that next week onwards, i'm gonna be in the same class with people and peeps i know! Best of all...Ah Tuck is gonna be in there with some others i can kajiao.

Wah shuang ah!!! :DD

Sudden high now.

Nights allll!

:DD

Strange; this-

-emptiness. I think it comes from realizing that...that closeness that was once there is now distant. Hai.

Nevertheless. I plan to get rid of this by spending more time with Sarah dear!

Sigh,sad.

Dk if this makes sense, but i feel like i haven't 'connected' with her...hmm.

Anyway.

Today Sarah dear and i headed to United Square, intending to sit and read at starbucks only to discover that it had alr closed down. HAHA,sian!

We had lunch there anyway-the minced meat noodles can't compare to the Toa Payoh's one, but it was okay all the same. ^^

Bought a book, a Stephen King one!

Then proceeded to Coffee Bean at Novena for a spot of reading and coffee. My gluttony way are coming back again; i had two coffees and a cookie(YUMMY). Then we went to Orchard-impromptu-to get Sarah's wallet.

All in all,i think today was okay! ^_^

I miss the good times we once had though. But i'm pretty sure they'll come back soon enough. :))

Pics!

At the end of this post i just realised something. I cannot wait around and tell myself that another opportunity will come and emo in a corner. I have to take action to make it all better for myself!

Random, eh.

That is all. :))

XOXO

Lyric from Kings and Queens from 30 Secs to Mars-

-'We were the victims of ourselves'!

Haha i just rmbered after reading Sarah's blog!

It impacted me, like, just..idk, exposed my brain to this flash of abrupt, complete comprehension and realization of it's 'f-actuality'. (like how true it is,y'know?)

I read somewhere that 'You are your own worst critic' and i actually took it to heart, parroting it whenever i put myself down. -_-

So foolish, but at least i've stopped doing it.

Haha, well.

This lyric is just so damn meaningful and relatable to me.

Anyway,

Nights!

It's the hols now~

~and i'm enjoying it so far! ^_^ Didn't do anything on Mon, cause i wanted to enjoy just chilling at home all day(but kinda fail lah,woke up at 12 in the noon -.-).

Come Tues, i went for Cowboys and Aliens with the BSC and Challenger guys. :)

Digression: I must say, guys are easier to go out with than girls...well, that is, any girl other than my close girlfriends lah. You can be straightforward, you can push them around a bit(jokingly, not aggressively) and they're more 'on' for sports and stuff than girls!

Also, i really appreciate and like the fact that if they're unhappy with you, they'd be straightforward and just tell you straight on the spot(well, most guys anyway). Quite unlike girls who'd backstab and bitch or just bottle up their frustration and spew it at you when it's least expected...

yep. Guys are more fun to go out with(sometimes). :)

Anyw, they pissed me off when we met at P.S, by leaving me to figure out the exit by myself and all... then after waiting for half a freaking hour, they finally appeared. Albeit in a funny manner, come to think of it(i was really pissed at that time; so childish and ungentlemanly! Pfft.)...they slinked aside the Sweettalk store front in single file silently, attempting to surprise me.

-__- harharhar so funny hor.

We then went to the foodcourt for lunch when two decided to go to Burger King, which resulted in all of us going with them. Then we had to flip a coin to, again, decide where to eat at.

Lunch at BK was uneventful; just the usual crapping, some kao-pehing and some jokes. HAHA

Walked to Cathay, dithered over the choice of movie for a bit then decided to get C. and A. anyway; went to Ben and J.'s, sat there bored stiff for half an hour then finally went to catch the movie.

Oh yeah they have blue Smurf-themed popcorn and drinks too. The blue popcorn is cute! :D Ben saw one in the box i bought and he gave it to me but i dropped it. Pity; wonder how it tastes like..

Am tired now so i guess this post won't be that interesting...

Anyw! I sat along Ben and he kept on startling me during the movie, like suddenly grabbing my arm during a tense moment-(HAHA omg reminds me of Odie when we watched Priest on my 18th!)-and laughing at random stuff...yeah. He also asked me if i wanted him to remove the arm rest.

-_- i figured it out alr. SIAO!

And err um NO i do not have a crush on him. Skinny girly Casanovas not my type k. :) muahaha!

The movie was...forgettable. K.c says it wasn't worth the money and i agree. Nothing but hard-packing fighting action and hard muscle...an action flick, and it was the first time i got bored watching one. Ah well.

Then stood around Cathay, thinking of places to go to afterwards and W. and the rest looked at pretty girls, etc, yaddayadda. Eventually settled on Kovan for dinner and bowling...

W.x stays in YCK, which is 2 hours away from Kovan. When we were in the met and someone went 'We eat yoshinoya!' he went 'WAH!' and mini- kao-pehed, cause it's like, just Yoshinoya! LOL. I think W. and B. said smth mean to me but honestly, i didn't hear anything. Apparently they thought i was hurt(i just stared at them)and began-not hao-lianing or anything here okay-praising me.

Embarrassing luh. I didn't know how to react -_-

Had Yoshinoya in the end(LOL)and had our usual chat and i cracked them up telling them K.c should smile more cause he looked kind, like a buddha, when he did. Teeheehee.

Had pool on the second level of the bowling, err...arcade? Center? Idk lah. The guys did disturbing things like poking each other's 'family jewels' in a bid to distract them from shooting the balls properly(i mean the pool balls btw). I have an inkling something funny went on but i can't remember what -.-

Thennnn W.x, D.k and i ended up taking the wrong train home, switched halfway and went home later than expected.

The End. :)

******************************************

So, today! I went out with Sarah dear for some F21 shopping, sushi and BFF, and Kbox(totally impromptu XD). Sarah bought lots and it was cheap for that amount of apparel! I got a feathered necklace(i wanna get more :D)and leggings.

Bought sushi and tako, went to scape to get her BFF and we sat and ate, also taking some pics in the process...then headed to KBox.

WHOO!

So fun! :DD We had a blast singing and (for Sarah)headbanging! We sang Adele, Barbie Girl(if that guy who said she was bimbotic saw how happy she was while singing this, it'd confirm his belief MUAHAHA),BRuno Mars, Dancing Queen(HAHA!)and such...

I really wanna go back again, if only if just to sing Adele. Adele!! Her voice is just so powerful and inspiring! :DD And also Sweet Dreams by Beyonce...

I'm rambling.

Anyway. After that we went to F21, got our stuff and went home. :)

Outing again tmr with her ^_^ This time, for something relaxing and cosy-coffee and a good book at Starbucks! :))

I've always thought of doing that but never actually got around to doing it! Haha, tmr will be so cool XDD for the novelty. Am planning on a book from Chuck Palniuk or Stephen King(SAN's bookshop).

Random, but now i'm also thinking that i Should limit my spending capacity. If Sarah dear can do it, so can i! Haha.

Anyw. I hope i can sleep asap now.

Nights! :))

PS: For all my talk of saving up, i've really gotta get quality footwear. Even my leather sandals have chafed off my skin -_-

Today, i swear i'm not doing anyyyy-ting-

-'Lazy Song', Bruno Mars. <3 Lol

Nothing much went on today! Just skipped church this morn...well not exactly 'skipped', couldn't arise more like...damn insommia.

Then a short lunch with Sylv. Dear! :)

We went to Novena to this new restaurant called Bam Bo to try out their food...i didn't bring my cam, so no pics of the food. But it was good. We had asian clam chowder-light and savoury, unlike the western ones which tend to be thick and creamy, YUM-and Sylv had beef sandwichs. I had cashew grilled chicken...the rice was really nice, almost fine-grained, the right softness and warmth and chewy-ness! Even the steamed cauliflower was good, salty and light. Could even eat half of that entire cauliflower with the rice, it was That nice!!

Came up to under $15 for each of us. I can foresee myself going there after school for a healthy lunch now. :)) with a good book, and a warm cup of tea maybe...

:D

Also bought this shirt from a push cart:

The image's sideways, but it's so pretty, no?? The antlers form tree branches and nature abounds in them(well, a small part does, anyway).

So pretty! :)

Nah where we ate at for lunch. Nice! Good for dieters. But maybe get a glass of plain water or smth, the lemon tea was sweet(but oh so good :D).

I really hope Sylv. Dear can make it this Wed. And also, that she'll get all As for her exams! <3

I wanna sleepover cause i miss her company too! And err,the mojitos and imbibing(did i spell this wrong?)of alcoholic drinks during the night. Heeheehee.

Oh yeah and the fried mozzerella cheese sticks!

Random jump of topics: I think my mean-factor's on the rise, as well as my aggression levels...what's wrong with me?! ):

I think i'm gonna take up judo to relieve this aggression. It'd be therapeutic, in a way, too. And CCA points :D

I hope i sleep well tonight. All this business of heavy eyelids and inner tiredness is wearing me out...and annoying. I wanna enjoy my day dammit!

Okay, that is all. :)

XOXO

So annoying-

-,the fact that my parents absolutely REFUSE to let me go overseas with friends till i'm 21! I mean,21?! That's 3 years away and by then, S. dear and the rest may not even have the time for that anymore!

>:(( Am much displeased.

There was a compromise though, that they'd let me take a friend along next year during the Japan/Taiwan trip.

But still.

Bah! ):<

My mum also refuses to give assent for the Batam trip the MSC mates have organized, saying she'd have to get news from the fengshui master first.

Aiyoooo am going nuts. So many nice,good things in front of me and i can't get them because my mum's overly paranoid!

Sheesh.

I hope pouring out my rant will stop it from rampaging through my brain.

Sigh.

So, anyway...

Ytd was the last day of MSC. It sucked balls. ):

Not whatever went on through the day,but the fact that these 18 months of being with such wonderful people shall come to an end!

...actually i'm just faking, it'll be the non-stop hxc slacking that i'd miss most. HAHAHA!

(but i do appreciate most of the new friends i've made! :) )

P., Y.t and i just rushed through the slides in the morn and in the noon, we had some 'workshop' and the farewell party(just some slideshows and all). We had great fun. :) I fouled up lots during the slideshow('can read yourself?', during P.'s 'thoughts', 'He didn't know...' instead of 'i didn't know', etc)but it was okay, at least it made people laugh! :)

Some pics of treasured memories :D :

No idea why Y.t gave me this nickname but HAHA i like it. Oh and the rolling part: "Push her to the floor let her roll to the back see if the rooms are open. If not go Macs!"

What i did when bored :D Also had a snowman and a fish but used them all up.

B. and K.C faked that B. was crying when he actually just had a sore eye. I nearly hugged him to comfort him when he laughed and went "Lie one lah!' and i pushed him away then took a pic. Him:"Don't take lahhh!" Wah like this shot max. K.c obliged to taking a photo for the first time! :)) With sweet Z.X too ^_^. I think K.c should smile more often. He really looks kind and benevolent when he does... like a buddha or smth. LOL :D So you can see how short she is. :DD Muahaha! (no lah jk)

MCs for the day :) C.y: 'Take what take can't even see!'. My flash proved her wrong B)

Greedy me attempting to take a self-shot to show how happy(and gluttony)i was =D

<- my fav pic of the day! :) Idk why i can't see this pic in FB tho. See how happily J. is smiling into the cam? That's cause she knows she has the best photographer in MSC. :) HAHA(does camwhoring count?).

Love how cam-ready Y.t is! :D She'd make a great cam-whoring friend. LOL

Nothing obscene, just joking around :) I stuck it onto her back on the pretense of patting it to give the 'juniors' a laugh :) I told her about it after i took the photos tho.

Then W.X, S.w,K.c,Aud., B.,R. and D.K and i went to the MSC Studios to wait for Warren. Freaked W.x and S.w out by going 'Do you want to come to Batam with mee?" in a very bimbotic girly act-cute voice and Aud laughed till she fell onto the floor. :3

Then W.x,W. and i went to the Grassroot club to wait for K.c and the rest to finish Pool. I'd never played it before, it seems...fun? LOL.

Debating whether or not to go watch Cowboys and Aliens as planned or just go for dinner cause it was alr too late -.-

Nah dinner shot. Popeyes. :) I wanted the black plush kitty! W. tried to help me get it but wasn't successful, lawllll

My Purchase of the Day, from MSC Studios. :) Can so match my Bali dress!! :D happy much??

On another note, the new MSC Studios Fashion team are not good with customer service. Tsk.

Just stayed at home and lazed today, got inspired to sew! But it wasn't much, just a cloth coin purse...i need a strip of velcro and Firmer material to make it fully functional tho!

Anddddd that sums up what went down ytd and today. :))

Nights all! ^_^

XOXO

In BSC,ytd and today...

These were what i did! I completed the mouth on Dita Von Teese's (doesn't look like her hor ): ) face and unfortunately, screwed it up. Shoulda stayed back that extra 5 mins or so to perfect it!

All in all, i think i took 1 hr+ to do these.

Btw the top pic was supposed to resemble Megan Fox's.

AHAHA.

I came early today and Ms Siow treated us to cake from Splash and Deckers. Whoo so nice!

P. and Y.t greeted me loudly when i came out of the lift and snuck up behind them,trying to startle them. They startled me instead,haha.

Nothing much went down today...just the realization that there are only 3 days left of this wonderful experience. ):

Like dang i don't wanna go!

No books for me! ):

Oh yeah and there was this guy called G. in the new Marketing team who has BIG triceps, i mean the type that seriously bulges and feels as hard as a sweet potato when you poke it! Scary eh.

LOL.

Okay, nothing else for now. :)

Ps: I think i've got my sketching/art-bug back!! :DD

(Cheesy post and rants! You have been warned) I must say-

-i have never been so comfortable in my own skin before. Part of me theorizes that it's probably been the 18 months of slacking-no studying, no prepping whatsoever; GREAT FUN! :D-in T.E.P. Free child-labor it may be, but it's certainly more fun than studying. :DD

If i must say so, i certainly deserve these months of break for whatever shit i've been through in 2010.

But enough of sad talk! Well actually, this post is just to remind myself how happy and fulfilled i can let myself be-all because i want it to be so.

Sylvia dear made this all possible. <3 She told me that 'No one can make you feel like crap unless you let them.'. 'You never know what people are thinking so why bother trying to figure them out?'. and more importantly-'Trust your instincts'.

I have to say, for a girl who's spent years of crawling out of her cocoon of solitude since Sec 1,who's been trying to find her place to fit into society, those words had the impact of a sledgehammer.

Okay,maybe not that dramatic; maybe the force of..a satay stick thrusting into a cube of ice-glazed jelly. (i keep on thinking of food -_-)

But the point is, i've fully accepted myself for who i am, what i've done and do, who i am now. I'm truly done trying to fit in; comparing myself to those who have shitloads of friends; those who just radiate confidence and lead exciting lives.

I love me for who i am now! :))

Yeah very bleargh-inducing for you but i assure you, this post marks the realization that i can be happy if i choose, and want to.

I've accepted and know now, of the fact that i need a balance of outings with friends and alone-time, just idling at home with NCIS or thriller/slasher/comedy/action flicks on the telly and a mug of water and maybe a small snack on the couch rest.

Ah,simple pleasures. :)

I don't want to subject myself to manymanymany fruitless, less-than meaningful and fun outings with friends just cause i want to 'liven up the public's image of me'.

And honestly i heck what the public(meaning NYP's people,etc)think of me now. The reasoning behind this is simple.

1) My real friends-my inner circle from St Margs(not very big, i admit,haha. Soemthing to be said for quality though. :) )know who i am. They accept me and love me for who i am, as i do them.

2) If anyone spreads shit about you, it's most likely because they're the one's who're insecure inside. Haiya honestly, i'd have to direct you to Shiberty's blog posts for this-i'd end up parroting her words if i continue! Haha.

Digressing, she really is a very eloquent, genuine blogger. She's my new role model now! :)

3) You'd much rather be yourself than put yourself through the rigours and stress to living up to an image you cultivate and want everyone to believe,seriously. I've been there before and it sucks absolute balls.

4) There are, obviously, people out there who think the same way you do, feel the way you do and even share your likes and dislikes! They're out there so don't bother being fake. You'll find good, decent, honest loving people eventually.

Or well, or so i'd like to think(the loving, decent part HAHA). :)

Okay by the end of this i have realized that i have been inspired by Shiberty's blogposts. No other reason why this isn't like the other 'Dear online diary, today i did so and so and had so and so and ate what and what' right?

Goodness. What an impact she has made on me, this pretty, wise blogger. :))

Alright, i shall revert to my usual way of blogging now. Ahem.

Sooooo, the new Marketing Team came today and we showed them the ropes, brought them along to the meetings and all...they had a workshop afterwards so, at least, for the afternoon-we were free of them! :D

That sounds mean it does but honestly...i really wanted to spend the last, remaining days of BSC with Y.t and P. and the OPS peeps, just enjoying the atmosphere, all the fun and laughter and just enjoy being around them cause this won't last for long.

): What a realization.

I confided in P. that i thought the two guys were cute on Mon, and i actually blushed.

-_-

Like my entire face turned pink! Okay lah i was embarrassed at telling a guy(first time leh!)that i thought two other guys were cute. No i do not have a crush on him/them. But well, what do you expect of a girl who's been in an all girls school for 10 years eh?

#TestroneDeprivedDespo HAHAHA.

I think i'd better not bitch here because i don't want things to become more awkward than they already kinda are but to summarize it... it was unpleasant for me during the afternoon-btw aren't nicknames supposed to be used by only friends and people who you actually like...and RESPECT? Alright no more deets.

I have to say though, i did feel like clawing _______-okay, scratching, more like-whenever physical contact was made.

Resisting the urge to rant is very frusterating.

Like.

AAAARRRRRGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

I CAN SO BITCHSLAP ______ CAN!! And the proper type(palm to cheek)and even claw you okay!

I'd love and/or pay to claw you.

Okay very mini rant over.

This probably does nothing to counter my claim of 'St Marg's girls not being bitchy' but. Well.

I have to let it out somewhere...if not here...then preferably in the offender's face.

Bloody unprofessional, appalling conduct i call it!!!

Hmph anyway on to happier things.

I know who i can trust and truly treat as a friend now! ^_^ *happy* It's a classmate in MSC.

Maybe i have to work on my tact though. I scared ______with my straight-forwardness and err...well, aggressive, come to think of it, sudden approach to the topic at hand.

Unfortunately, i am one of those people who cannot take hints, or sometimes, sarcasm. You have to be detailed and straightforward with me, otherwise i prob will miss out on what you're actually saying!

That's why i don't-or rather, can't; i don't know how,honestly-beat around the bush and just get to the topic at hand...

Haiyo, tact, y you no born in me in 1993? ):

Anyway. This happy revelation came after a somewhat upsetting incident at MSC Studio earlier on in the day. Y.t was particularly...er, for the lack of a better word, physically aggressive/abusive today. Not only did she push me, she also kicked me. -__- Then in the Studio, she hit my head.

Not the weak, friendly types either-the real whack! that hurts your head!

I actually saw red and being very pissed, hit her head in retaliation and my hand skidded down, prob poking her eye in the process. When P. went 'WAH. Bitchslap!' she went 'BITCHslap'.

If it means what i think she's hinting at,well, it just fuels my frustration with her today. -_-

You see, you don't hit the head,stomach or anywhere other than the shoulders. In my opinion, anywhere, and anything else more than a friendly shove or hit to the shoulder is unacceptable.

Also Disrespectful.

How would you like it if your friends beat on you everyday because 'it's just friendly gestures mah!'.

Seriously?

I DESERVE RESPECT, not because i want it to feed my narcissism but BECAUSE I GIVE YOU RESPECT AS WELL.

And you better bloody well give me what i give you in return because it's the decent, right thing to do so.

I know i sound super angry but in reality i'm just mildly annoyed at how she treated me today. What i've stated above goes for everyone who thinks it's okay to rag on their friends 'just because'.

(My, i'm angsty and wordy today aren't i? -.-)

Anyway. Now apparently everyone thinks i'm the bad one. -_-

I tell it as it is but if you choose to take sides, fine with me. No sweat on my part.

But sheesh, you have got to learn your boundaries, manners and respect for others-actually everyone,in general.

Like wtf, you want to be subjected to such shit too just cause you think it's okay and thus, everyone behaves that way too?

-_-

Okay, rant over. Now- for real, Happy things!

My dad says we'll be flying to Taiwan(business trip)and Japan next year!!

Kyahhhhh! I cannot wait! I've never been to Taiwan before and i Cannot wait for the shopping. :DD Time to save up.

My dad's still unaware of the region we'll be travelling to in Japan, but,well...Time to Slim Down.

I've been repeating this many times but this time i'm actually putting in effort!

Like jogging, eating less(i suddenly thought of cheese and omg Now i'm feeling hungry while typing this)and walking lots...

It'd be nice to have a dog trotting beside me while walking. Haha :)

I've been to Japan twice and really-all the people there,save for two, are Very slim and slender. I was like "....! Fml!' when i first went to Japan because i felt so out of place there! I went to Osaka first, i the pics are in hard copy format(geek speak?)so i can't upload them here... i only rmb the 100yen shop and snow crab sashimi.

The snow crab was AWESOMEEEE! :DD Delicious, cold and salty, perfect with hot rice! Delicious. :D'

My second visit was to Hokkaido...lovely scenery! But this time round, the people there really irked me. Old couples kept on giving us unfriendly, relentless stares(like they stare at you for the entire period of time you're around?!)and girls actually gave me bitchy stares. Seriously.

Apparently it's because Japan hates China for all the bad things tey've done(tainted milk scandals,etc...)and since my family looks like ethnic Chinese, well -_-.

Certainly hope this trip will make up for the bad impression Japan left on me! :))

Omg and Hokkaido's Curry, milk and sweet corn were FAB!!!

Dad says we'll be in Taiwan for 5 days and Japan for...a week? Idk if we're gonna fly from country to country though.

That's gonna be a lot of money(taiwan to jap currency...idk if there'll be enough to shop with!)and outfits.

The first thing that popped into my mind were images- 'Red cardi, match with this and that!'

:DD Gonna have So much fun dressing up,i tell you.

Dressing up overseas is always more fun than in Singapore...here, everyone's style is just -_-.

Slippers, tees and shorts.

Dull! And when you really dress up, somehow there's this nagging feeling that you're being critiqued and judged for what you wear.

Such is the fashion scene in Singapore. -_-

Or maybe i'm just being paranoid. LOL.

Okayomg really have to go sleep now. My eyelids are literally heavy and i wanna rise early to watch Grizzly Tales for Gruesome Kids. :DD Ah,simple pleasures~

Nights! :)

XOXO

Apparently-

-, according to P., St Marg's girls have a reputation for being fierce. Many stories and even a LEGEND about the extent of this nature is rife.

Like.

WHAT???

HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

That certainly was startling; I'd never ever heard of such a thing before!!

That really amuses me it does. Such a rumored rep though,can't be that all bad. At least it'd make hooligans think twice about messing with one of us(i'm a through-bred St Marg girl! Primary and Sec).

Story of the Day.

On a side note, my cakes did better than my previous cupcakes, and some said they were yums.

:DD yay!

Helllooooo online shopping! :)

Met with C.Y in the noon to have lunch, at Ichiban Sushi :) I love their food,esp the octopus! It's really hard to find good octopus in any Japanese restaurant. Didn't take any pictures, because she didn't want me to take any,so... ^^

We lunched and chatted about how we're now, and had a spot of ghost story telling. I told her the one about the toilet near our MSC OPS room and she totally freaked...haha..

She then brought me to do my DBS card at the DBS Bank at AMK Hub; also doing some window shopping in the process.

She is so nice and sweet! And a notable shopping buddy! :D Honestly, no one-save for S. Dear,and my close friends,of course-would've led me to do this and guided me along the way. :)) She is so nice.

^_^ i hope that we'll continue to keep in contact after poly(so quickly is the third stopover approaching...i feel apprehensive at the thought of book and more books. D: )

Anyw, after she left(for a tarot-card session-isn't that interesting??),i bought this red cardi at some random shop at the bus interchange...am considering getting a green baggy top there too.

Shopaholics never rest on their laurels! :)

I actually considered getting this neon-coral long skirt, but there'd be an issue with the tops,so..ah well.

Am pleased with the red cardi. :)) Forgot to take a pic tho,dang.

Baked for the rest of the day(and evening)...i made vanilla cake! And as it was my first time ever successfully baking a cake, i took manymanymany photos of it. :)) Hard-shelled, a tang of sweetness and a decent shade of golden-brown on the surface and moist and crumbly on the inside...i do hope it'll be better than my cupcake-failure in BSC. Those were like wax cupcakes with diabetes-inducing icing, those(i admit). -.-

On a side note, i really should retry baking cookies. Idk why but whenever i try to bake a decent batch of cookies, they never taste right! I shall try again in the hols.

Am in a slight dilemma about how and who to give the cakes to now,though. I'm only gonna have 25 and there's, of course, my OPS room peeps to give it to, my Challenger friends(same shift)...i do want to give some to certain people in MSC Studios and Cheers but it's like, if i only give one or two peeps and not the rest it'd be...well. Idk, awkward and tensions could arise? (or maybe am thinking too much luh, tension over a slice of cake -.-)

Hmph, will figure it out somehow i guess. Pics of the cake(and my nails which i am 'bimbotically' slightly stressed about, having chipped my nail) ! :

Too lazy to move them all down...well, i'm uploading them on FB now.

Look at that moist yumminess. Don't you wanna have some now???:DD heh.

I think i'd better get to sleep now.

Nights world! :))

Old memories.

Sometimes i catch myself wondering where i went wrong in those friendships i struck with those in my previous CCA. And yeah, i (kinda) do miss their personalities and how quirky each individual was.

Then i remind myself that i'm still constantly learning,and having my own personal journey(still,haha).

Hmm, 'personal journey' sounds...awkward and mawkish. Still, it is the closest i can get to describing what i'm still on right now. :)

Stayed home; another MC day for me! Keep this up and i might be 2nd Runner Up for the title of MC Queen,wahaha.

Got bored during commercial breaks(NCIS, y i no discover you sooner?!), so i painted my nails creamy baby pink and black shattered; will post pics up tmr. Am happy with the results! :)

Right, i should be snuggling my pillow now.

Nights!

Awww. :)

Idk why my words are underlined, but heck.

Am on MC today! While ewaiting for the bus to arrive i had a real bad tummyache, so after deliberating for a few minutes, i decided to get an MC today.

Sore throat hasn't fully recovered(tho the meds and dried-lemon peel and all my parents have gave me has made it better ^-^), and diarrhoea galore.

Sucks to be me now(well,kinda).

I crave teriyaki chicken from Splash and Decker's.

Y.t and P. tricked me just now, made me confused and agitated(not the 'angry' sort but the 'huh?!!' sort). Haiyo,scared me for nothing,LOL.

Hope i'll be better by tmr!

Splinter-

-in my thumb, cause by my unwrapping of those disposable wooden chopsticks. ): Pain. It still stings after it's removal. Said my mum:"Removing splinters is my specialty!"

At dinner today:

Dad(in Chinese) to Mum: "There's a girl who looks exactly like our daughter in Pek Qio, bespectacled. Really looks like our daughter! Fat like her.'

Mum and i: "Tsk!"

Of course i fiercely glared at him. I know my size is the opposite of dimmutive but honestly, wtf you don't say this to your own daughter!

I've certainly been jogging daily on the treadmill too at home f.y.i.

Anyway, my dad kept silent for a while, chomping his rojak.

Mum: "You mean fatter than her lah, she's been working out everyday you know!"

Dad: (nods).

Then: "I got a shock. I was queuing for my wantan mee and i was looking around when i saw her behind me, xia wo yi tiao! I was 'eh what's Grace doing here? I thought she was at home; why's she suddenly behind me? And how come suddenly more fatter?' Then i stared at her face and she stared back at me."

Dad demonstrated his reaction and my mum and i dissolved into giggles. Could totally imagine his stunned face!

Kept me chuckling for quite a while.

Anyw, Whampoa market has this salon that offers highlighting services(and wash and blow) for a cheap price; below $20. Zillion of times cheaper than the salon i'd originally planned to go to($130+) to streak my hair Japanese strawberry(a really pretty color imported from Japan!!).

However, they only have german colours, am hoping they'd have the really pretty Jap strawberry shade tho.

Am planning a visit there, sometime in the future. Maybe in the two week hols in Oct...

A week and a day more to my new pet hammie! :)) I still don't know what to name it though, and if i should get a cage for her, would she somehow,idk, hop out of the plastic tank i am considering to house her in? And so on,so forth... my mum's petrified of her escaping from the tank.

In fact, she's absolutely terrified of all animals, particularly dogs. -_-

Sian, looks like i'll have to get my own house in order to have dogs-and cats and rabbits and turtles! Provided there'll be enough space for all of them luh. :)

I think i'll stop here so i can online-shop more intensively, read manga and P.S all the way.

Nights. :)

Epic

-is what can be used to describe what happened in the OPS Room today.

In short, a cockroach got trapped under a broom(wielded by the mighty roach-battler P.)and i attempted to exterminate it using a dustpan. I broke the edge instead and ran away shrieking -_-

Paiseh leh i used to kill roaches and shoo away lizards in St Margs and now i'm like .. -_-

The nice cleaner Auntie helped us get rid of it and we spent a min or two laughing about it; i laughed till my belly ached!

This morn, i laughed real hard in MSC Studios. Well, we had a laugh at K.c's expense(he took it gracefully tho :) ). B.s went 'Ka Ching!' and sorta did an ass-wipe motion while saying it,and she looked so funny we couldn't help roaring with laughter! K.C laughed too and after that he made us laugh even harder when he mimicked how B.S said his name-her eyes always widen

whenever she says his name.

I laugh real easily so even now i'm still grinning at that memory. Hee!

Before i went off w Odie, Y.t gave a stranger the shock of his day(not life cause come on, not that frightening lah)by yanking open the Shopping Arcade doors and going "MOONCAKES!". The

way she related that incident to me was damn funny i tell you,omg!

Would've loved to see it happen,really.

I have this thing for doing things and seeing people's reactions. Some of their reactions are quite

funny! It's like Gags for Laughs(i think i got the name wrong),except that's it's irl and you get to see it 'live'. Muahaha.

Went to Marina Bay shopping center,had Pizza Hut(Gosh hadn't been there and had a good cheesy pizza in ages!)and walked around quite a bit.

Odie's now kinda regretting not buying a top in Bershka she saw earlier and i'm still thinking of this really nice funky tribal ethnic-like store which sells wood accessories and dresses! I got a ring and necklace from DIVA tho! :DD HAPPYYYYY.

Was real happy bout the ring(originally $17 now gg for $6 on sale!)cause i really wanted it the first time i saw it! Then i examined it and found it had an ear missing,so...kinda put a damper on my cheap-thrill ride. -.- Lol. The necklace,tho pretty...well i'm still getting over spending-guilt.

$20.

(but it's pretty!! And it matches the new bangle i bought and well,it was the only one left on that hook...)

I foresee weeks of saving up in order to appease my attempting-to-be-thrifty conscience.

May be doing CIP w Odie next next Sat, we'll see how things go. :)

The pretty wallet-breakers:

Matching bangle, bought from Accessorize on a sale! :)

Pretty :))