I've been thinking a lot lately-

-and i need to get it all out on screen here.

But first, just to get some things out of the way:

Drawings i did(plus others which i gave away) to my classmates ^^ The last two ones were drawn by my friend.

Had my ICA 1(test)on Customer Service ytd and it was okay! ^_^ I think i'll pass, which is good given the fact that i only seriously studied one lesson instead of the recommended 3 -.- Lol. Went for KBox with the guys ytd too, and we drank, sang, ate etc.

We also had dinner at this innovative corner of AMK's food court, which had its chefs cook and serve us fresh vegetables and meat in front of us. Twas okay ^^

I really want to go to KBox more. I clam up and get shy whenever i have to sing myself(my skin isn't that thick hor HAHA)so my version of Adele's Rolling in the Deep was diluted...the guys sang Chinese songs mostly, and W. had me cracking up when he sang 'Dui Mian de nu hai kan guo Lai'('the girl on the opposite's looking here'),cause of the cheeky way he sang it!

I just found myself singing it. HAH. Anyway.

M. also asked if i were an only child and when i commented upon that random question, she said that most only kids had certain 'defining characteristics'. I must admit, it threw me off kilter a bit there.

Like...what kind?? I don't even want to know if it's positive or negative.

It seems like i'll never quite be free from these pervasive thoughts that clutter up my mind everyday.

Anyway, i just had fun in class today. ^^ I drew caricatures of my classmates and gave it to them, thus amusing ourselves noisily and probably pissing off the teacher and students in front in the process.

Teeheehee.

I now have K.C's famous web-drawing; i asked him to sign it. I shall upload it in FB and hope he gets famous or becomes a media sensation or smth. HAHA

Lots of stuff invading my mind right now, but all i want to say is, i sure do hope i'm not wasting my time, energy and effort on something that will not last beyond Poly. I honestly don't know why whenever i put in the effort to be friendly and establish lasting, solid friendships that my efforts all go to naught in the end.

Is it honestly so hard to be nice, understanding, caring and appreciative of each other?

I don't get it. I can be abrasive sometimes, but at the end of the day i do genuinely care for those who really matter to me.

I don't get why some people are, or act the way they do. I just really don't.

I would love to be proven wrong in my thinking that making friendships aren't worth the time,energy of effort just because they simply will not last or that most don't,won't or can't even give a shit about your very existence.

So damn hard to keep up the goodwill sometimes.

Just so damn hard.