Kindness is more than often undermined.

...sometimes it also seems completely underrated, or at least it seems to me, judging from the people i've encountered in my life.

I had a stroke of luck today, in a sense...my in-charge got annoyed with me for panicking, in my haste to serve a customer and forgot to check stock for sizes. So she immediately called Suntec City's Giordano and had me posted there. To see what the in-charges there had to say about me, i guess.
Have to admit that the thought of taking MCs to avoid going to the branch at Suntec did flit through my mind...and the strong apprehension that i was going to step into a new boiling pot of stress and temper tantrums and scoldings by said in-charges.
Long story short, they were quite nice and friendly...especially one nice, kind, skinny little chinese-malaysian boy. :)
Taught me things with such patience, and he was so nice about it too! Afterwards he told me to follow him to the mrt (cause i had no idea how to get to the nearest mrt and he told me i would get lost if i went on my own way, haha)and we talked-most of it was how i could improve in work tho.

Point is, i haven't experienced such a copious flow of kindness and such patience in such a freaking long while. I especially didn't expect it from anyone from Giordano, considering the hostile reception i got from day 1 on the job(despite being friendly and all to them.). But he was so nice, encouraging me, telling me his life story(he's really open and frank and lively)to inspire me to ,well...stay strong and hold on. Sounds cheesy but yes, that's what i can best describe it as.

I still don't understand how malicious of intent that f..ktard's friend-who i helped with his mum's medical condition and helped on his free day off-could actually be. I don't know how and why anyone could do such a horrible, despicable thing to anyone who actually helped him so much. I didn't even give him any attitude. I realize i'm getting ahead of myself; this is what happened(it was actually a post that i saved as a draft, thus the lengthiness):

If there's anything i've learnt today, it's that i shouldn't be so naive when it comes to judging a person's character...nor should i easily offer aid to them. Either that or maybe these two are just f..ked up pretty bad in the head and heart.

I was told by my new superior that apparently, i 'take more than 20 mins whenever i go to the loo and bring my hp with me', and that i' give attitude once someone is too lenient on me'....as according to my previous supervisor and f..ktard.
Now the fact is, that yes, i do bring my hp to the loo with me. But for goodness sake, what would i be doing in the loo for 'more than 20 minutes'?! Entertain patrons with medleys or dances, perhaps? And i can't even believe the audacity with which they stated the above.
'Give attitude'? The only instances i can think of that come close to this is my ribald joking and being easy going. Perhaps they found this annoying, they being so serious about their work and all. And that time when i gave f..ktard that look.

I really was super stunned when she told me this. I cannot believe the sheer gall of these two bastards. One who evidently took offence with me from day 1(although all i did was to treat him like a new friend) and one who-and this is something i sincerely, really find most outrageous-i helped.
The latter is f..ktard's friend, and i've helped him by giving him medical advice(asked my mum who's a nurse)for his mum. Also agreed to help him by coming to work on my Off Day, because if i didn't, he'd be the only one manning the store for the whole morning. He even thanked me for it that night.

Now this.
I can't believe this.
You help someone out, think that you guys are on amicable terms after chatting away cordially and boom, they shoot this shit right at you in your face.
Why does this sort of shit always happen to me, really? I have tons of bad luck when it comes to working, seriously. It's either that or i think far too highly of people in general(like believing they know the difference between right and wrong, having morals and all and knowing when to be grateful and what not to do, etc).
Was so stunned and pissed simultaneously that i nearly cried in the shop today. -_- Seriously i can't believe a pair of unreasonably biased bastards nearly made me cry. I never expected this.
Sigh.

Yet there's sort of a bright side to everything though.
I wasn't informed that one'd be on a trial run for 3 months to see if i was suitable for Giordano, and that one'd be fired upon receiving 3 warning letters. I got one, apparently for arriving late 2 times. Can't argue with that.
However, my new superior-who can be super strict and fierce and scary when it comes to effectively making sales-has told me that she can help me cancel said warning letter.
I've really got to prove to her that i'm an asset and that those lies are nothing but untruths, seriously.
Not sure yet but if things really get further out of hand, i plan on suing those buggers; Defamation of Character. I've the CCTV footage to back me up after all.

Seriously, today's been one of those days that i've received a mighty blow. Sigh.
I think i'd better go rely on fengshui masters or fortune tellers or people like that to reverse my luck or smth. Or at least advise me on the types of jobs i would've better luck in. :/
It's just so sickening, getting all this bad luck in life, all these setbacks, all this painful shit. Seriously.
Must've been Hitler in a past life or smth to receive such copious amounts of bad luck.
Sigh.
Perhaps it's for the best that i become an introvert again or smth. Seriously can't tahan so much of this. :l


But anyway, so yes, that happened. I don't know why this happened, i really don't. Anyway that kind boy-'K.', echoed the gist of it: "You helped him and he harmed you?".
Can't tell you how much of a relief it was to finally have someone understand the circumstances in my situation, and be willing to listen and understand.
He kept on telling me encouraging, positive things in the mrt and made me laugh.
I sincerely hope he rises to a position of great power and influence in the future-the world needs more kind, patient, benevolent people such as he. I do.

Now i'm wondering if i should just go ahead and quit. It may seem feeble-minded of me to state that i've only come to terms with my own despondency after hearing him say that he "would quit if he were me, 'cause you're clearly so unhappy there". I guess i just internalized all that negativity in Novena's Giordano and somehow thought that i was at fault...though that's not to say i'm partially not(forgetting to greet loudly, check stock). Yet i need $$ cause i totally blew my past paycheck on stuff. -.- Shopaholic's karma, perhaps.

Sheesh, i really have some serious bad luck when it comes to jobs. I'm not fated to work, perhaps. The fates  must be telling me to be a tai tai. Haha!

On another note, i really hope i'll gain such kind, good-hearted people such as he as friends in the future. The world needs more people like these, seriously. Was so touched by his sincere, kind-hearted words that i couldn't stop tearing up on my walk back home from the mrt.
-_-
Sigh.
To quit or not to quit, that is ze question.